Friday, April 15, 2011


Its been two years since they're friends and she has known & loved him since forever.
She loves him to death with undying hopes that may be , MAY BE someday he'd walk upto her and confess his love to her. Though , she pretends to have moved on , to cover every question about him with her fake 'I don't give a fuck nomore' attitude.
And I wonder if he even cares. Guys usually don't. They're heartless creatures.
I've known a part of him , that sometimes leaves me confused.
Confused about why does'nt he really want to be with her ?
Her unconditional love. Why can't he appreciate it ? Is he so unfortunate ?

Has he even tried ? Tried to understand the heart that he's hurting ?

Seems like she does'nt have a choice. HE is everything to her. Loving him is like her need. Is he really worth it all , if all that he has to say is 'sorry' ?
Could just one sorry take away all the pain that he put her fragile heart through ?

Not everyone gets the one they love , and not everyone is loved so much. Only if people start appreciating and respecting others' feelings for them. Only if people instead of waiting for the one they love , start living with & for the one that loves them , their lives would be happier and more content.


The urge to express whats in my heart ...

Close your eyes for a moment. Come on, I’ve never made you do anything that you’ve regretted later, have I? Just close your eyes for a second and think of the people that you love. Think of all the people in your life that you genuinely love, and care about deeply.

Now think of the last time you told them that you loved them. Think of the last time that you looked them in the eye and told them how you felt about them.

Shocking, isn’t it?

Now, it’s not difficult to figure out why I’m writing this. I’ve lost far too many people in the last few months. More people than anyone should lose in a lifetime. Let me get one thing straight though-I’m not saying this for anyone’s sympathy. The ones who already know are the ones who are helping me through this. So if you’re thinking of walking up to me and going, “I get what you’re going through” or something similar, please don’t. I understand your sentiments and I’m grateful for them, but they’re something I just don’t need right now.

The point of this post is something else altogether. Too many people in my life have left without knowing how much I loved them. Too many people who were incredibly close to me have breathed their last without the knowledge that I cared for them more than I could put into words. I thought I expressed myself adequately, but apparently that’s just not true.

So I’m telling you now-go and find everyone you really, really care about and tell them so. Go do it right now. Otherwise you might end up like me, venting your feelings through a medium which can’t even reach out to those it’s meant for.

So take my advice, and go hug the world.

Oh, and to those who’ve gone on…

I love you.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011


Life right now is bizzare.
I don't seem to understand whether it's good or bad.
I got what I wanted and as a matter of fact I always get it, but I am not happy. Yet I am not sad either.
I have freedom and it hurts.
Then again, I got cheated on and yet I am happy.
I have a past I don't want to look at but I am proud of it.
I finally have all the opportunities, but I miss what I sacrificed for them.
Well not like I had a choice.
If I had a choice, Life would be much better, yet when I turn around and look I am the only one that has a choice.
Its all about how you look at things.

And right now I sit and realize.

I have learn't not to crib over small things because then things only get worse.
I have also learn't that being happy makes things worse.

Thats when I realize that life is going to unfold the way it has to, no matter what and its only a matter of what you think of it that makes a difference. The only way you can make things better is when they get bad, just relax and be optimistic. And the only way you can make things worse is by feeling sorry for yourself.

Now to all who think, why are you unhappy? and why are you happy?
Think about it because the ONLY one who gives a shit is YOU! The ONLY one who can make a change is YOU and the ONLY one that matters is YOU.

So enjoy life because you never know you might get addicted to not enjoying it and you'll end up enjoying cribbing about everything.

Don't moan unless its out of love,
Don't cry unless they are tears of joy,
And don't mock me for what I have written unless you know the REAL me :)

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

W.H.Y ?

Why does it happen sometimes that a major event in your life does not affect you the way it should and a small, insignificant thing or action leaves you greatly disturbed?
Why is Love the most powerful thing, which can be the most beautiful and, at the same time, most devastating thing in your life?
Why does it happen that you start hating the person you desperately love and even start falling in love with a person you despise?
Why do changes have to be so hard?
Why can’t a friend be there for us when we need him or her?
Why does it happen that the person we trusted the most turns out the most untrustworthy person around?
Why can’t we live our lives the way we want to and not let others define it [Its OUR life after all!]?
Why doesn't death come easily and at the time we want it to come?
Why do we have to go to work?
Why can’t people accept us the way we are and not the way we should be?
Why is this life so long and yet not enough?
Why do people hurt others?
Why do other people get hurt when we don’t mean to hurt them?
Why does the friendship of years end with an enmity that lasts even longer?
Why was life was simpler when we were toddlers and were amazed by simple things?
Why do some songs make you cry?
Why do we cry?
Why is crying weakness in some eyes?
Why can’t some people just see through us even when we want them to and others can?
Why am I asking these questions?